She a bad bitch!!!!!

    This year is a bit different from the previous years; first off no more dealership, couldn't die there, just couldn't see it being my end game.  I am determine that when I go out, it will be on my terms. My wife and I felt that we had a good run with the life we been living, but it was a time to get back our most precious commodity; time. We have never taken our eyes off our goals, our kids are getting older; and more demanding of (daddy time) they don't understand money all they know is daddy is at work and it was either Mommy, nanny and never daddy. That shit is unacceptable. To each their own, I know of many Families that the father is there on the weekends, and I guess that works for them(God Bless'em) But my kids are going to get a heavy dose of daddy's philosophy, of demanding the most out of life, doing what I want when I want to, traveling, visiting foreign lands. I want to be the major influence in their lives. If I were to create pie chart of my life it would've look like 98% work, 1% family, .5% wife, .5% me. Our house got so full of STUFF, just extra shit! We operated out of guilt of not being around,  it was tough on us( all of us), difficult on our marriage too. This too has been an adjustment, being around, and being depended on to matter #WorkInProgress.

 

Low Blows

How many days can I continue to do this? My concern is not about me but how I am viewed; by the people I love. I'm here shaking my head, because this shit doesn't stop . I'm damned if I do & damned if I don't. My upbringing has made me a bit more extreme, when I see something not going in the right direction; I change the direction.

. I want to live a big life, by my own standards. The judgement is brutal, I can only win my way, your world doesn't work for me. My determination doesn't have a color. Just the other day I was pretty much told, to give up, because I'm black; That's why I know I will succeed, there isn't much competition, with thinking like that. Looking forward to a 4 door Bentley as my daily driver. What color is the content of someones character?

40 is Not the New 20

Turning 40 has made my thought process completely different, I feel as though it's race to retirement. I want all our debt gone, I want to save a lot more money, move in to our headquarter home in Chandler, our retirement home. My main immediate goals are to Grow our business Tiburon Xchange, crush my job pay plan!, drive cars that are paid off (that will be a first, the whole car thing). There have been some major changes in my house hold; my oldest daughter decided to come live with us as she gets established in her field of choice. All I ask is respect and to be an addition to our family. They say our house is boring, I say don't bring yo ass over here then, we don't have time for your petty crap anyway, you fricken time killer! We are trying to use life up, we make our best effort to not waste time on things that won't matter tomorrow. We focus on "Minding our Business", it's about achievement over here. This life we are living is by design, not default. I truly love my life. The past 90 days have been challenging , started a new gig selling Telecom, which I have no experience, but since I know sales, the vehicle doesn't really matter. Everything has to be sold in this world, either your buying or selling. Oh, had my first experience with a non selling sales manager, he never sold, but was stuck on playing manager, we call it "manager-idious" with a bunch rules that at the end of the day didn't put numbers on the board. To his defense he was setup to fail, he didn't have a clue of how to lead, and was dragging my ass down the same path. Recently things have gotten better, they got someone in there that has done it before on a high level, and finally I can breathe. But now my ass is behind the 8 ball, with 30 days to make it happen, or I go away. But I figure, who cares Kieran, you can make it happen. With this new air I'm able to breathe, my success and confidence is starting to make a move in a positive direction, amazing what can happen when you can trust what the manager says cuz he done it and had success. This burning desire is for my family and I to stay harmonious, allow God to work through us, no one said it would be easy, just that it would be worth it....

He forgot his toothbrush again...

When I told him I was coming to pick him up for Thanksgiving, I said "make sure to bring clothes and a toothbrush, the distant between our homes is far and he would be here maybe thru the weekend, which he was". I knew the first time had to be a mispack, we supplied him the last toothbrush, and he just left it at our house and it appeared unused. So this time I made a point to remind him to bring his own. Still to this day I dont think he gets it. My family has a scapegoats for all their issues, my two sisters and the drugs they love. My mom says "he don't know no better". But does that give him a reason not to brush his teeth, he looks in the mirror everyday and to have his mouth look so horrible at such a young age, it so bad I can't watch him talk, I get distracted. At the rate he's going, he'll have dentures in his thrities, no joke....

deserving Blessings

I'd been thinking about writing a Blog for a while, about my Blackberry messenger, and on how its not for everyone in my circle-sorry, but its not. Started reading #Atlasshrugged and all that went out of the window. This book has me so fired up and I want to talk about the things I feel I deserve.I dream big, just wait.I don't do much, we do family time and outings. I go to the gym, been doing it since I was 17. I still love to Hoop,I workout so I can continue to hoop. I work in my office @TiburonXchange, in an attempt to make us "free" from all the rules that people who don't have money have to abide by. Go- Do- eat- when and where we want too. Take family trips to other countries, for six months at a time, renting Villas and Range Rovers, for the stay. I've thought this thing through,seriously. These two people are why I can't stop. Theses are my babies!

We're both very involved in the upbringing of our children, I personally want them to go to #Yale or #Harvard for grad school, well....at least have the option to go. But I don't want them to be employees. That's just me. See, I think #God and I have a great relationship, God is like the rails at the blowing alley for kids- for me, he keeps me out of real trouble. I'm not perfect but I feel I'm genuine, I want us all to feel how I feel, A feeling deserving of the blessings, which for me is sometimes a struggle too. My goal is to have success in each area of my life, "that" doesn't sound like much! I believe with perseverance and working hard on "Purpose" is magic. Walking by #Faith, and not by sight, working with faith is putting your neck out there, taking a stand and feeling confident in your choices, knowing the God will walk with you. I don't think that's asking too much.#Blessings: Much is giving, much is expected. I know I won't ever stop trying to achieve that success- like #Ceelo said "Die Trying"

Before 12AM

Up this morning around 6ish, felt that itch in my throat, didn't want to snort, it would have waken the wife lol; right! wake her, not @ 6am, haha. Brianna had a "sleep over" with her cousins, so she not home, I got bored. Remembered I had recorded Miami/Thunder game. Haslem was most impressive, Bron Bron as always, did his thing, and Bosh! that- jumper- is- wwweeett.
I wanted to start this sentence off with" I almost forgot about my computer being broke", but that would've been a lie, it was on my mind. It hasn't booted up since last nite, had to test her again, I thought she would've come on, I let it rest...., crossed my fingers, come on, come on????..... its was really broke. It was too early to call anyone, but I was sick, that damn thing is my lively hood. I watched Jersey Shore, to get my mind off it; had to see what these idiots did this past week. Had to eat, I had sandwiches, yeah for breakfast, I know hahaha, but it was good:-)
At 930am she wakes(my wife), I instantly asked her to try to fix the computer, she tries, she confirms, its broke. Wifey says it may be on the other screen, which is @ the office, I got dressed, but not really; I put on socks and shoes, & just stayed with what I had slept, that's nasty, no draws, but I was optimistic, thought I'd be right back home. While I was driving to the office, I called Mike,( my design guy) he didn't really know what to tell me.
After its all said and done, I ended up @ Microsoft in Scottsdale $49 later, I can pick it up computer tomorrow. Now I'm @ watching the Bama game. Bree's home, her and mommy are sleeping

Gettin After It: Being Inspired

When the U.S. Basketball team won the Olympic Gold Medal Game, the game came on at 4am, had to work at 8 , but I was up! and fired up! you know "the hoop junkie", had the treadmill out, figured I'd burn some Lb's at the same time, you know (drop some off the waist) nerves on edge cuz Argentina was no joke, and the Gold Medal wasn't a lock, but it was: youknowhatimsayin, they still had to play the game, on foreign soil, and if Wade and Bron Bron had a off night, we could've taken an L. But we won, we won.. Kobe's the MVP.
Went to work on cloud 9, sold my first 2 cars by 11am, had and appointment that showed around noon, and a unexpected showed about at the same time, of course I took the one that was paying the most, and split the other , was trippin. This day was in the top twenty, best days of my life, we won.